All About Sleeping

I haven't been able to get out of bed, eventhough I was really looking forward to having class with my two favourite teachers. It has been weird, I want to do all these things and I just keep procrastinating, stacking everything into a pile "I can leave for later". In a few moments I'm gonna get dressed to go to the gym 'cause it is now the only place I leave every worry behind and just run like hell or lift weights or whatever.

I have been drawing a little, and it's hideous, I'm out of practice, which makes me sad. I heard that the reason people don't do things they have abandoned is because thy realize it takes a lot more effort than the first time you did it, and it's true.

Somehow that's the reason why I don't revisit my french course, or my sanscrit one. But that's another story.

Lately I've been having nervous breakdowns for no aparent reason, I guess the fact that I feel I don't do much makes me anxious and unwilling to get up from bed and viceversa. Breaking the cycle makes me feel better until the next relapse in which I fall in bed and sleep for the next three days. 

Come to think about it I have a good reason to get up, so I can do stuff and write about them instead of bitching all the time...

I hate it that my boyfriend thinks I'm a stalking maniac, I am, but not with him anymore... I found someone else to stalk who will never notice and wont care ( I know it's not a nice habit, but it's useless, harmless information I gather and I break no laws too) . I also hate my BFF doesn't read my blog anymore... but that's 'cause he's so busy studying so that he can one day pay my bills tee hee :)